January Currently!

Happy New Year!
I can't believe this is 2013!!!
This year my baby graduates from high school.  This will be his last year on his high school varsity soccer team and he plans to go to college out of state in the fall.  How is this possible?  I can't think about it or my heart will break!  
Time with our children goes by way too quickly!
I'm linking up with Farley over at Oh' Boy Fourth Grade for the January Currently.

Here goes...

Listening:

When am I not listening to the History Channel?  Ugh!  That's all my husband watches.  It's safe to say, I don't really watch t.v.  I like a little history, but I also like variety.  My husband strictly watches the history channel. (Sigh)  

Loving:

I am loving the extra time with my family this past week.  I feel like I'm a "real" mom and that cloud of guilt, I carry around while I'm working, has vanished.  I've enjoyed getting up and making my family a big breakfast, keeping up with the laundry, baking goodies, and having lots of time to sit around and talk with my 2 boys.  During a normal work week, I feel like I neglect my family with the typical 10-12 hour work days.  Plus, other than church on Sundays, I do school work most of the day.

Thinking:

If you've read any of my previous posts, you are probably aware that I had to pack up my entire classroom right before the break.  They are replacing the flooring in our K/1 wing.  We have inservice all day Monday and the students return on Tuesday.  I won't get to unpack and get my classroom ready until after 4:00 on Monday.  Ugh!  Needless to say...I am DREADING it!

Wanting:

Yep!  I want a new house.  I've never liked this house, but I've been content.  We had one weekend to buy a house over 14 years ago, when we were moving from Missouri to Texas.  We never thought we would stay this long.  We've been waiting for our kids to graduate from high school, and this is the year.  I want to live in the country and I want a one level house.  I guess we will see what God has in store for us.

Needing:

Okay...okay!  I've got to stop eating peanut clusters.  I love to bake for the holidays.  I made strawberry bread, banana bread, pumpkin bread, sugar cookies, ginger crinkles, chocolate peppermint cookies, white chocolate cream cheese apricot dream cookies, cranberry oatmeal cookies, and peanut clusters.  I was able to control myself on everything but the peanut clusters.  I tried a crockpot recipe for them and it is the best!  I've lost an additional 15 pounds recently and if I don't stop eating chocolate I'm going to gain it all back.  

OLW:

My word is definitely confidence!  I don't have confidence in myself as a teacher.  I'm extremely insecure.  Last year, my principal wanted a whole team of first grade teachers to come observe C.A.F.E in my classroom.  I tried to politely decline, but she talked me into it.  Three days before the observation, I woke up at midnight, broke out in hives and I couldn't get back to sleep.  I had to back out.  It's truly a phobia for me.  I envy teachers that are comfortable with visitors and believe in themselves.  I'm especially conflicted when I read posts in the bloggy world.  My reality is so different from what I read.  We don't teach "thematic" units.  I miss it.  I wish we could, but it doesn't work with what our district believes in.  When I read about what other teachers are doing, it makes me feel out of touch and then I begin to question myself again.  I am passionate about what I do, but I definitely need confidence!

There it is...my January Currently!